In my last post, Pippa was begining to improve at the childminders. It was then followed by a brilliant Christmas break where she wasn’t clinging to my side as I originally thought she would be, but was running around, joining in with the other cousins and children (mainly the older ones!) and overall turning into a confident little girl.
I was hoping this new found confidence would continue once she was back at the childminders. However, although she has been very confident at the childminders own house and playing nicely with the other 3 children she looks after, whenever they go out to playgroups or anywhere with other children, Pippa refuses to get out of the buggy and cries. If she is convinced to get out (normally against her will) she won’t leave Charlottes side and if Charlotte has to tend to the other children Pippa cries.
Before Christmas Pippa also had made progress with her fear of dogs and was happy to be around Diesel, the childminders dog. However this seemed to take a step backwards and she now freaks out and cries if he’s anywhere near, posing another problem. Then there is her irrational fear of the childminders husband which if she even hears his voice ON FACETIME, she has a breakdown!!
I can’t explain any of the above as she’s just a totally different child with us. To be fair, she doesn’t like dogs but she doesn’t have meltdowns over it. But the rest we just can’t understand. We have been to birthday parties with 40+ children and adults with bouncy castles and soccer school and she has ran off to join in without a backward glance. We go to baby gym and she tells other children off if they’ve got something she wants. She is happy around male friends and family, sometimes taking a few minutes to warm up and come out of her shell, but again never a meltdown over it.
It therefore didn’t come as a shock when Charlotte said she couldn’t have Pippa anymore, for the second time, and that we should find somewhere else. So here we are again, looking at having to get Pippa settled into a nursery. A nursery filled with children (that she’ll hate) and where her keyworker will have to look after other children apart from her (which she’ll also hate). I’ve opted to do two weeks of settling in, starting tomorrow with an hour stay and play session with myself and then on Tuesday I have to leave her there. I’m trying so hard not to make this too confusing for Pippa so I’ve taken some time off work so that I can be there but I still hate the thought of having to put her through this!
Maybe, just maybe this will be the right environment for her and she’ll love it, but we’ll have to see 😦