I knew the time would come where I would have to leave Pippa for the first time but the thought of it terrified me, especially as she hadn’t left my side since she had been born, let alone the 9 months she was growing inside me! I missed her at night even when she was by my side so I decided rather than biting the bullet and doing it suddenly, I would leave her gradually, for longer periods each time.
I first left Pippa at 6 weeks to get my hair cut which I knew would mean I would be away for about 2 hours. Knowing how long I would be really helped as I knew if Pippa would need feeding/napping/changing in that time and I knew I would definitely be back at a certain time. This was also the first time Harry had been left with Pip on his own too so it was an experience for both of us! I think we were both quite anxious but we were able to message each other updates which meant it went well on both parts.
Being the first out of my friends to have a baby, they were still going out for dinners, brunches and lunches – something I would always participate in pre-baby and I didn’t want this to change. So at 7 and a half weeks I decided to join my friends for dinner. I don’t know if this is just me, but being out in the evening or leaving Pippa of an evening felt much harder than in the daytime. I’m not sure if this stems from the early days when she was so unsettled in the evenings that I felt we needed to be home with all the necessities around us or just that I enjoy our bedtime routine, snuggling down for the night.
In the days running up to this particular day, I was so excited. Mainly for a night off and also to feel a bit more like the old me again. However once the day came, I was very teary all day but didn’t realise why until Harry suggested it may be because I was leaving Pippa for the evening. Once it clicked I then couldn’t stop crying and actually leaving the house was really hard. I was meeting my friends in Windsor, about 40 minutes away, so the fact I wasn’t just round the corner made me more anxious than I think I would have been if it was local.
Once out I was hoping my anxiety would dissapear but unfortunately it didn’t and I couldn’t really relax. However once I got home and realised that Pippa was absolutely fine and I slipped straight back into the night feed I realised I had nothing to worry about!
It was then time to move onto the next step – H and I leaving her with someone else entirely! After some deliberation we decided that my birthday (Pippa’s 2 month birthday) would be an ideal time to get away just the two of us. So for my birthday present Harry arranged a much needed spa day for us both, complete with a post-natal full body massage for me!
We were allowed at the spa from 9am – 6pm but we decided to arrive about 10am and leave about 3pm, any more time away from Pip and I think I wouldn’t of been able to relax! We roped in both sets of grandparents to share the babysitting, as they themselves hadn’t been left alone with Pippa either so were also slightly nervous! However the fact they came to us and I left lots of instructions helped me relax and I knew Pip would be fine with Granny in the morning and Nanny and Grampy for the afternoon as they all love a cuddle!
Apart from realising how tired I was after sitting and relaxing for the first time in 2 months, I really enjoyed the day and wasn’t worried about Pippa at all, especially as we were receiving lots of photos and updates the whole day. I think the key is leaving your baby with someone you trust at this stage and having them in your own home also means that everything they or the baby needs will be to hand. The next stage will be leaving Pip at the grandparents, or even an overnight stay…however i’m not sure i’m ready for that quite yet!